Tamara

iwillbeheard @ 2007-08-20T14:38:00

2007-08-20T21:38:28Z

yay for fucking deadbeat exboyfriends...

wheeeeee

2007-07-14T06:00:34Z

i seriously can't remember the last time i updated!

i was just reading through everyone's entries; i am extremely jealous of all you girls - going for bike rides, taking cooking classes, going shopping, having girls nights - i miss the city and i can't deny that i miss that life a little bit. everyone is doing fun, adventurous things and i have preferred to stay home lately.

life the last few months has consisted of: cleaning up chihuahua puppy accidents (thanks katamari), gaining 10 pounds and 2 cup sizes, snuggling, having garth brooks dance offs in the living room, playing harry potter for wii, drinking a LOT of wine, learning about jdm turbos (gah), floating down the river 3 times a week, and trying to figure out what i'm going to do with my life!

i desperately need a vacation and an adventure; it's not kamloops fault that i'm boring, it's my own and i should probably work on that. crystal and i are going line dancing; 2 years ago today i would have been dressed up having martinis at honey and smoking menthols.

find me on facebook if anyone wants to see epic amounts of cute puppy and family pictures!

whoaaaaaaaaaa

2007-02-02T18:40:20Z

soooo apparently i only update this once a year!

only a couple things you need to know:

- my debt is completely paid off!
- at any point in time i usually have about $1500 in electronics in my purse
- newfound financial freedom got me a new camera!! expect lots of pictures
- i am soooo sick of the cold
- my house is like living in preschool
- i don't think i have used my kitchen in over a month
- every night i either play pool, rummy, or some sort of cards. i'm learning poker!
- sooooo in love. so so so in love.

iwillbeheard @ 2006-10-19T14:09:00

2006-10-18T21:09:31Z

i haven't updated in forever
i live in kamloops with 3 super wicked girls
i make retarded money at TELUS
i met a boy
life is pretty sweet!!

iwillbeheard @ 2005-11-29T13:05:00

2005-11-29T21:05:44Z

this has all gone to shit.
my life is a complete shambles.
i obviously can't take care of myself, let alone you too.
i'm so sorry.
this hurts so much.

iwillbeheard @ 2005-09-22T02:55:00

2005-09-22T09:57:09Z

I'M ALIVE!!!

i am in arizona, and am currently the happiest i have ever been.
EVER.

i am sitting in a silk robe on a tiny couch in the front yard with a laptop, a cute boy, and a very fuzzy kitty. i think i can see a cactus. it is 27 degrees. brett is feeding me cheese and it is yummy.

OK BYE

iwillbeheard @ 2005-09-16T10:41:00

2005-09-16T17:50:23Z

wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
i am so ridiculously stressed out. if anyone would like to send a couple thousand dollars my way, i'd be extremely appreciative. i hate to get to the point where money (or lack thereof) completely dictates my happiness, but when it's all i can think about to figure out if there's anything to eat today...that's bad news.
work is going nowhere; i had assumed that i would still be applying for a third key position somewhere after the oakridge job didn't pan out. my store has been training bazillions of new assistant managers that have never even worked for the company so they can go be management at shit stores out in the boonies. apparently just because i work for an A++ store, i have no hope of moving up. i want this mens specialist position. i learned how to tie a tie and everything for it. c'monnnnnn.
i also have been a complete hermit lately and i'm sorry. i realized yesterday that i had made 3 outgoing calls in the last, like 2 weeks. i almost typed years. if it had been years, i'd probably be a little pile of bones in the closet. i really miss my friends. i started getting upset that no one had called me, but then i realized that it's hard to want to call people that constantly say they are too tired to go out. i'm not too tired to go out, i'd just rather come home and call brett. and sleep, but i haven't been doing much of that lately, either.
in other news i have been completely knocked off my feet by a certain someone, and am very excited for a (FREE!) cross country trip that will make me extremely happy. everything is perfect. it's like i scribbled down what i wanted and god went, "POOF!" and there he was. i am going to spend the entire week with a shit-eating grin on my face. and sweat stains. because arizona is damn hot.
i need to get ready for work and then entertain some immigrants.

<3

iwillbeheard @ 2005-08-22T01:44:00

2005-08-22T08:51:03Z

quick update so everyone knows i am alive. i moved into my new little bachelor apartment on main and 33rd, right across from the donut place. this will probably be the death of me, although i'm not sure how many french donuts i can consume before i burst, i would bet that it's not as many as you'd think.
i have been here for almost 2 weeks and i have already locked myself out twice; once i was saved by an open window and a very long branch, the other time i got to drink beer and watch the dude upstairs' country band jam in my garage.
lately i have been working very hard and making lots of money and paying lots of bills. i bought the cutest jacket on earth tonight and i probably won't be able to eat for a week but it's totally worth it!
jesse and i are doing really good, we 3 way spooned joey today and it was sooo nice. i love kitty more than anything and miss him terribly.
other than that, everything else in my life is currently chaos. i think i might need to take a small break and evaluate some shit. i'm a bit lonely lately, living alone has been harder than i thought it would.
that's it! call me if you miss me.

<3 tamara

p.s. stop hurting me.

p.p.s. i'm sooo excited about you, mister.

iwillbeheard @ 2005-07-21T00:25:00

2005-07-21T07:30:27Z

i think i would really like it if just for one day somebody made me (ME!) a priority
i always give more than i get and it is making me tired
this is way too much work
if you wanted things to be good you could make them good
if you wanted things to be easy they could be that too
i just can't understand where you're coming from because in my mind what i want is what i want
there's nothing stopping me
i always thought that if you wanted to you would
wanting it and wanting me i guess are different things
my head hurts
sorrysorrysorry

iwillbeheard @ 2005-07-09T00:22:00

2005-07-09T07:23:15Z

hahahahahaha
i have never been so right

iwillbeheard @ 2005-06-13T22:05:00

2005-06-14T05:05:59Z

you can take the girl out of the small town but you can never take the small town out of the girl

iwillbeheard @ 2005-06-03T00:03:00

2005-06-03T07:04:38Z

why do easton ellis screen adaptions make me want to drink and smoke myself into a coma?

iwillbeheard @ 2005-05-27T13:58:00

2005-05-27T21:01:03Z

SO the marc jacobs jacket i have been lurking for months just went on sale....

kelly, please tie up my credit cards.

iwillbeheard @ 2005-05-13T00:05:00

2005-05-13T07:07:25Z

sitting in the back of a giant brand new caddy blasting gwen stefani and drinking beer on the corner of hastings and pandora at 2:00 in the afternoon?

priceless

iwillbeheard @ 2005-05-11T22:04:00

2005-05-12T05:06:06Z

i bought a lipstick today called 'cocktease'

iwillbeheard @ 2005-05-06T13:08:00

2005-05-06T20:10:24Z

you are all jealous that this is alllll mine

also mine:

iwillbeheard @ 2005-04-28T17:41:00

2005-04-29T00:55:42Z

WHERE I WAS BORN:

WHERE I LIVE NOW:

MY NAME:

MY FAVOURITE FOOD:

MY FAVOURITE DRINK:

MY FAVOURITE BAND:

MY FAVOURITE SMELL:

MY FAVOURITE SHOES:

iwillbeheard @ 2005-04-27T10:37:00

2005-04-27T17:47:27Z

ALL ABOUT YOUR SENIOR YEAR OF HIGH SCHOOL

[What year was it?]
2002/2003

[What were your five favorite bands/singers?]
misery signals, refused, uhh i can't remember

[What was your favorite outfit?]
jeans, skateshoes, colourful basic tee

[What was up with your hair?]
really short, black and pink! then it was reddish for grad

[Who were your best friends?]
jenna, andrew, fallon, zenon

[What did you do after school?]
either work, or nap, or go on msn

[Where did you work?]
CD Plus in the mall

[Did you take the bus?]
nope i was close enough to walk

[Who did you have a crush on?]
nick matovich, i had the biggest crush on jesse pretty but andrew told me to give up...look where it got me!! haha

[Did you fight with your parents?]
quite a bit

[Who did you have a CELEBRITY crush on?]
dennis lyxen

[Did you smoke cigarettes?
never

[Did you lug all of your books around in your backpack all day?]
nope i didn't do any homework, so i left my books in my locker every day

[Did you have a 'clique'?]
i didn't really have any friends, but i guess me, jenna, tyler, zenon, amber, etc. were a bit of one

[Did you have "The Max" like Zach Kelly and Slater?]
no :(

[Admit it, were you popular?]
not in the slightest at all

[Who did you want to be just like?]
i have no idea

[What did you want to be when you grew up?]
fashion designer

[Where did you think you'd be at the age you are now?]
exactly where i am

iwillbeheard @ 2005-04-27T00:40:00

2005-04-27T07:49:34Z

i think this entry has been brewing in me for awhile
i have so much anger and i feel so left out
i try so hard not to cry when everyday i go to school and find out about something that happened the night before which i, of course, wasn't invited to
it's like highschool all over again...everyone has a best friend and i as usual dont have one
i have never fit in and i figured it would just get better after highschool but here i am more than 2 years out of it and it's still the same old shit
my cell phone is always silent and the only time i go out is when i make the plans, or manage to invite myself along
it's not for lack of trying either; i try so hard for everyone to like me and i have absolutely no idea why it doesn't
most of the people i know, i don't even want to be friends with them but what else do i have? it just gets really lonely and i can't afford to be choosy
i thought i knew myself and who i was but the more time goes on the more i realize i don't at all, and i am mostly just a product of my surroundings
i don't care if everyone hates me, that's fine, but it's the careless indifference that really hurts
I wish just once i could be the girl everyone wants to hang out with, the one who gets the first phone call and always has something fun to do
i think i'm pretty nice, how come no one else does?

TOP 5 CELEBRITY CRUSHES

2005-04-20T00:13:14Z

i like beards, what can i say

RYAN GOSLING

RYAN REYNOLDS

JASON LEE

DAVE GROHL

i could only think of four, but my love is divided equally between each one.

iwillbeheard @ 2005-04-12T22:46:00

2005-04-13T05:46:51Z

HOLY SHIT AS IF THIS ISNT TOTALLY TRUE TO LIFE

STRAIGHT OUTTA COMPTON, GOSH!!!!!

Whats your gang by The_molecular_man
Name;
Color of the bandanna you sport
Number of creds you got	14
Number of hoes you pimp	59
What you look like
Your main hoe
Your Gang
How Much Money You Make PIMPING	$813,879,889

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iwillbeheard @ 2005-04-06T14:28:00

2005-04-06T21:28:40Z

all i want to do is see the darkness live, please and thanks

SKETCHY

2005-02-02T21:00:54Z

the fucking nerve. don't come to my house while i am gone, and use my computer to have webcam parties with random dudes.

iwillbeheard @ 2005-01-13T01:14:00

2005-01-13T09:15:25Z

i am really glad jp was here, or i would have done something really bad.
i never would have gone through with it, but believe me, i would have tried.

iwillbeheard @ 2005-01-06T09:09:00

2005-01-06T17:10:00Z

HOLY FUCKING SHIT I NEVER THOUGHT THIS WOULD HAPPEN IN VANCOUVER. I AM SOOOOOOOOOOO STOKED.